The Supreme Happiness Of Life Is..
The Conviction That We Are Loved!

Ang Yu Shian Tracy
20 years old
17th August 1990
*AnGeL Of The Sick*

*Love Ones To Be Healthy Always*
*Successful In My Nursing Career*
*Being With The Faithful One Forever*

[Precious In My Life <3]
# QiQi* Beloved
# Hui Yi* Jie
# Mummy* PreciouS

[Nurses <3]
# Joey* Darling
# Wei Han* Besties
# Jasmine*Gal
# ShiFong
# TzeKei
# ShaRon
# Catherine
[Friendx Of Love<3]
# Christina* Favourite
# Sheilina* Smiley
# Wee Liat

Lovedrops♥
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Pachebel - Canon in D major -

Have I Really Ruinned My Own Future ? Passing Or Failing ?

Woke up @ 4.30am..Went out very early @ 5.20am.. Took the First Bus161 from Woodlands @ 5.55am.. Reach IMH @ 6.30am.. Rather Early Than Late.. Had our roll-call in the meeting room..Though didnt really understand their reports, but at least got some ideas of it..After tat, sit in for Doctors' Rounds.. Observing on how the doctors ''interview" the patient of their mental status..Was really a good experience,cause from there, i manage to observe different kinds of "patterns" from the patient, and also the final decision of the Doctors.. After which, went to the "living room" where all patient were, to get to know more abt each individuals.. Observed the Nurses serving medication one-by-one.. Chit-chatted, play mini soccer,Board Games with the patient, at the mean time, continue observing them to decides on the games to be played for the rest of the days with them.. Some were really hard to communicate, but some were still compliant.. Had a nice day with the patients..

Here comes the worst part... Halfway through, was called in to the staff corner by Mdm Tan.. Sat down and there goes the scoldings.. This time round was really really a Fierce One ! It really breaks my heart..My tears were being holded back in my eyes, eventually my eyes turns Red.. I felt so hurt suddenly.. Even though I was Numb n used to the scoldings from her, No matter how fierce her scolding were, it had never trigger my tears to flow..but i didnt expect that i am not able to take the blow this time round.. Can you imagine how Fierce it was this time round..

She said this phrase which really hurtx mi :"I Wont Be Surprise If I were to fail u for this 2.1 posting.. You Don't Deserve it ! You are simply lazy like nobody business ! I dont care even if you were to graduate 6mths later than the others ! Is YOU Yourself who had ruin ur own future ! Not MI !... No use crying now, It's Too LATE ! "

Well Thanks, She had put a Full-Stop to my dream.. I felt sad not because of anything, but solely thinking that if i were to Repeat my posting and graduate 6mths later, it's really a waste of time and not worth it..And i really really really really really don wish to.. I want to graduate with my Nursing Mates..We came n start together, and so shall we end it during our graduation ! I it still possible by looking at this current situation ?! Haix.. Somemore manage to know the next week schedule.. What I wanted, I didnt get it ! What i dont wish to, I GOT IT ! I want a AM for MOnday (17/8), but well done ! I got PM for that day ! Argh~ ! Fine ! There's always a reason for every things that occurs..Fate..

Didnt even have appetite after that lecture by her & additional .. Stomach was empty since I woke up this morning.. Sadness had covered my appetite, tears have filled my stomach.. Was so depressed,But my smilex was still there..No point crying over a spilled milk..So why not try walking on and continue to find another bottle of milk, cherish & enjoy the drink to the fullest..That's what life shld be isnt it... Hope i could think positively no matter what happen from now on.. Promised myself not to drop down at this critical moments..Must brace up, Walk on ! Jiayou ! Seriously shall leave everything to Fate...

With Love,
shian