All I HaVe To Do,Is Just ThiNk Of You...

13 July 2009

♥ 7:42 PM

Pathetic Monday.. Was hoping for a great monday ahead to start with this morning.. Was seriously damn damn busy ! Even until my breaktime, i was held back to deal with some problems.. But Was glad to have break with Jasmine & Sheena.. We were all worn out.. Is just a few hours and we were soo exhausted already ! Didnt have much appetite to eat.. So as usual, drank my favourite 'Pearly Bandong' from Mr.Bean.. Yummy ! Than went back to the ward to revise on some nursing skills to be performed.. Didnt manage to go find Dorothy even when she's just so near mi.. She went to had ear check-up, n now she finally can hear clearly le.. Must take care oh.. After break, continued the rushing works..

Bed 3 uncle almost scare my wits out.. While taking parameters, i heard a 'Asst.Nurse' calling mi from the opposite cubicles for help.. Rushed over and knew that uncle's head was "resting" against the cot-side.. I quickly tapped him, calling out his name, but no response was given.. I bend down and look at his facial espression, his eyes were rolled up, saliva dripping non-stop,face as pale as a white sheet of paper.. I quickly sit him at a fowlers' position, take his BP, n guess what, his Oxygen level is just 30+ at that moment ! I was SHOCK ! O2 lvl lower than 88 is already very alerting, what more to say when it drops to 30+.. Alert the staff nurse in-charge and i rushed here and there to get equipment needed for him.. He was soo breathless.. Gave him his Venti-Mask & followed by Nasal Prong and slowly the o2 lvl increased.. Ordered Nebulizer for him and it gets much more better.. Stayed by his bedside for at least 2 hours.. Making sure he is doing fine.. But his conscious lvl seems to worsen.. Hope he will be fine by tmr.. Is really a Emergency situation at that moment.. Thank God he was discovered early, or else, he might just leave due to lack of oxygen..

Bed 36 is somehow "a pain in the neck".. Started talking to him and knew he was quite a good-chatter.. But soon after, he keeps on saying he not feeling well all that.. Dr checked everything for him, did all the test, monitor his vital sign, all were stable.. But he keep on insisting he got lots of probs, feeling very sick, very worried, very uncomfotable..etc etc.. And keeps on asking n asking n asking to teach him what shld he do..blahblahblah... Counseled him, teach him methods to relief stress all that for lots n lots n lots of times.. But he still didnt manage to absorb anything i tell him.. Was busy with other things, but here n then, my colleague will come to mi, telling mi that the uncle is looking for mi.. Argh~~ When i goes to him, he repeated all the same thing again n again to mi.. I was like....WHAT U WANT MI TO DO THEN !!!!!! Even Dr try to shun away from him..Hmm.. U Will only understand when u r in my position dealing with the matter itself..But what can we do..Tolerate lo.. We shld nv raise voice or vent anger at our patient !

Bed 1.. Was admitted since the first day we started working in this ward..Was my first patient to talk to.. Was fine this morning.. Still made Coffee for him.. Changed his diapers, collected his stool specimen for test.. We still chatted normally.. He was about to be discharged..A maid was hired to tc of him at home.. The physio just manage to teach the maid transferring techniques.. When we transferred him, he was still ok.. As and when, i'll ask him whether is he feeling ok or not, any uncomfortable, any breathless..And his reply was always ok.. Around 2pm+, I saw his curtain closed..1 of my colleague standing outside the curtain with the maid.. I was wondering what happen.. Went over to ask them, then knew that he passed away a few mins ago.. I was totally shock.. My mind was in a total blank suddenly.. Is like too sudden for mi.. He was fine a few mins ago, but left us in a split second.. Everyone was finding the cause of his death..someone even assume that it was bcos of the transferring here n there, which makes him breathless n pass on..Which i totally disagree..It was his daily routine to sit out of bed on the chair, but nth of the sort happens.. I felt so guilty when the SN keeps on finding the "culprit" who transferred him on the chair,cause i did transfer him too.. I was so scare at that moment..Keep on thinking, is it really my fault ?! Will i be held responsible ?! What is going to happen ? TOns n tons of question keep appearing in my mind..Until Mdm Tan came to have a talk with mi when i knock off from work.. Telling mi the real reason for his death..I felt more relieved..But was depressed over it.. I didnt expect to see him leave just like tat.. May God Bless Him... R.I.P,uncle..

Nurses are held great responsibility when nursing patients.. Not Only they have to face the patient itself, face the senior nurses, face the doctors, face the family members, and also to face their own Fear ! Too much of responsibilities to be carried on their shoulders, making them getting more n more vex as time goes by.. Stress will drop on them which makes them suffocate.. Do not think that nurse is a simple job..Try it out n u'll noe.. Lots of complains/court cases of nurses for their Negligience in healthcare.. pls ppl, be more merciful, i noe seeing own love ones hospitalise is an anxious matter, but pls pls pls, do not rush nurses for this n tat..Do not stress out the nurses.. It doesnt benefit anyone in the end if the nurses were stressed out and things happen unexpectedly.. Be patience.. No patient will be neglected during hospitalization..they will be given equal treatment.. Think Thrice before doing anything, to avoid regrets...

Was in a total mess today.. Mood was really down.. I feel my whole person is so stress out.. I can hardly breathe ! Just feel like rushing back home asap after work.. Knowing that i'll be alright once i get home.. Lucky mummy was there to hear mi out.. Or else i'll definitely go crazy.. Today's "lesson" is just a begginning of my nursing route.. More to come.. Have to overcome it one by one as time goes on.. I'll never give up on nursing until the day i leave this world.. I'll make sure, patient under my care will be safe n sound all the while.. Going to have a good rest tonight to start a good morning tmr ! Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou ! =) Nothing is gonna beat mi down ! Endure....

WIth Love,
shian