The Supreme Happiness Of Life Is..
The Conviction That We Are Loved!

Ang Yu Shian Tracy
20 years old
17th August 1990
*AnGeL Of The Sick*

*Love Ones To Be Healthy Always*
*Successful In My Nursing Career*
*Being With The Faithful One Forever*

[Precious In My Life <3]
# QiQi* Beloved
# Hui Yi* Jie
# Mummy* PreciouS

[Nurses <3]
# Joey* Darling
# Wei Han* Besties
# Jasmine*Gal
# ShiFong
# TzeKei
# ShaRon
# Catherine
[Friendx Of Love<3]
# Christina* Favourite
# Sheilina* Smiley
# Wee Liat

Lovedrops♥
x x x x
Pachebel - Canon in D major -

The 4th Day Of school....

It's coming to the end of this week soon..Or rather, end of the 5 days of campus studies ! Ytd slept ard 2am+..Morning woke up with 2 swollen eyes ! Goodness ! Was feeling very restless, but no choice,have to drag myself out of bed n proceed to school..Today is not a day to be late, cause 1st lesson is COMBINE LECTURE ! hmm.. During Bio science-Combine Lecture, we started on "Physiology Of Urinary System"..Was really a tough topic to understand.. Even though the teacher had repeated sooooo many times, most of the student were still confuse with it..haiz.. I was struggling in the lecture hall.. Tried my best to adsorb all the explaination.. The worst thing was.. We were asked to sit in our register number accordingly..None of the ones whom sits next to mi is able to help mi out..N some irritating ppl just love to disturb others when they ownself doesnt want to study..haix.. I suddenly felt so tight up in my heart..Mayb i'm too tired n also gave myself too much stress for this few days..And halfway,we had 10mins break..I was like feeling damn "lousy" inside mi..I felt very uncomfortable..was tense up..When i took out my phone n plan to msg someone to express my feeling, i found out that i got no one to turn to..I just sat there, tears flows down automatically..N so, to prevent attracting attention from others, n to prevent all the comfort from others which will make mi cry harder, I quickly wipe away my tears n pretend i'm rolling my Itchy eyes..n that's y there's tears..lolx..Sounds stupid, but I told myself, i ought to be brave at that moment.. Crying makes mi feel more comfortable,but life still goes on.. After the break,lesson continued..As i keep on controlling n holding back my tears, it drop down automatically..I really wish i could cry out loud for once..lolx..After awhile, I "hold" n "hold", finally it stopped ! I "swollow" It ! After that, went for Project Management class...had an early lunch break,than went to library to find books for our projects..After class, had Geron Class..than lastly, PCA Practical.. Practise on our 'IV Therapy' Phase Test..Really need lots n lots of practice.. Teacher said that, tmr we'll be having extra class on Bio Science from 4-5pm.. Than on Saturday, we can choose to go back for 'IV Phase Test' practise from 9am-1pm.. hmm.. Still thinking whether want go back not..cause is like,have to wear uniform, than somemore is sat ! see how first ba... Came home, mummy went out to Tzuchi...No dinner for mi tonight ! But nvm la..don have appetite also.. Heard from dad that mum was sick,she vomitted this morning..haix..sick still don wan stay at home rest.. Hope she recovers n get well soon...

Something makes mi really sad..Yazid asked mi to lent his friend in JPA Class my "nurses watch" n "Scissors"..I was soo reluctant to lent, cause the nursing watch is Dear bought for mi de..I'm selfish enough..I admit..I don wanna share anything that is bought by him with others, which goes the same as I WONT share him with anyone else.. But when i got my items back, first thing i check is the beloved watch..But i found out that the 'clip' that locks n prevent the needle from poking out WAS GONE ! Which means, i am not able to wear the watch now ! The needle will come loose n drop out..haix..I'm really really really upset ! What to do..haix..I noe to someone this might be a small matter, but to mi is not ! It matter lots to mi ! Wearing the watch whenever i wear my nursing uniform, will make mi feels that dear is always with mi, accompaning through my studies n giving mi support... But now...=(... Regrets...

Right Now, This Second, This Minute, I'm feeling soo tight up inside my heart.. What's wrong with mi ? Giving myself too much pressure ? Thinking too much ? Haix.. I'm Wore out... Is it true that having another partner with you will ease your worries ? troubles? shoulders to cry on? I'm really really impress with the couples whom can "survive" till old age..How much of determination, hardworks, unhappinest,sacrifice,tolerant they had went through to get to this stage...Always telling myself, if he's yours, he'll definitely be yours..If Not, than it's time to let go.. Is it so easy ? I wish i could start all over again... How i wish i could get into an unconscious stage right now, n wakes up after a "long rest", not remembering anyone, n starts my life all over again.. It's not a good idea of course..But...Just hope to find my way out soon...

Everytime when there's no contact from you, I have a feeling of you leaving mi..

With Love,
shian